Break is over, I've decided not to blog any more. What started out, in my mind at least, as a simple little thing turned into one of my biggest fuck ups ever.
To those involved I'll never be able to tell you how truly, truly sorry I really am and I had no intentions on hurting either one of you...
Goodbye...
Friday, January 9, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Time off
I won't be writing for a while. I have to fix something and until that's done I'm not writing anything here or anywhere else that will accidentally cause trouble. I had no idea it would get so bad or ugly or hurt the person that I try so hard to do just do the right things for.
I'm very sorry and ....................................................................
Please no comments, I'll just delete them.
I'm very sorry and ....................................................................
Please no comments, I'll just delete them.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
New Years Resolutions
New Years is a time of new beginnings. It’s kind of like we get to start all over again with a fresh canvas to paint. It seems so official but couldn’t we just start over any time we wanted? Seems to me we could resolve to change ourselves any time we liked rather than having to wait until New Years. But I suppose this is no time to wax philosophical debates.
I think resolutions can be a great thing for some people. For other people it seems they set themselves up to fail by making their resolutions too grand and vague.
The resolutions need to be within reach and manageable. I want to lose weight is vague. I want to lose 50 pounds by June by eating healthier and losing about two pounds per week is a better start. Then break that down even farther and write down how you’re going to eat healthier, how you’ll track it, who will help you, etc. (Just a note I’ve lost 35 pounds since September which is why I chose this particular resolution)
It may seem like more work but if it’s really something you want to change you’ll do it.
Now there are easy ones of course like maybe you resolve to smile more. Sounds easy but you’ll need to think about it more often. It’s not exactly the kind of thing you can have a plan for unless you want to set some kind of reminder on your watch, etc. to make you think about it.
I think some people try to resolve too many things. When it turns out there is just no way to do them all they give up on all of them. Your list needs to be prioritized. The things you want to change the most should be at the top and in writing.
I’ve decided to just make four resolutions.
1. I will write 30 minutes each day. It doesn’t matter what I write I will do it at least 30 minutes each day (this hopefully will include more postings). I’d like to specify a time but I know that just won’t work and I know there will be some days where I just will not be able to sit down at the computer.
2. I will go back to school. That’s a vague one because I haven’t figured out how to pay for it yet so part of this resolution is to spend at least an hour a week looking for grants and/or loans.
3. I will send out at least one query a week for my completed book which I’ve been ignoring.
4. I will spend at least one hour a week (more would be better) researching paying freelance writing jobs.
I think each of these resolutions is a reasonable goal and most of all none of them seem overwhelming.
I’d be very curious to hear what any of you folks have resolved to change in the upcoming year and how you plan to do it.
I hope you all have a very happy and healthy new year!
PS – My friend’s husband did lose his job (Christmas eve, can anybody be that cruel...) and her dad died just several days before. She drove to MA for the funeral and is still on her way back. Anybody having good thoughts to spare it would be greatly appreciated!
I’m wishing her all my strength and whatever else she needs that I can do...
I think resolutions can be a great thing for some people. For other people it seems they set themselves up to fail by making their resolutions too grand and vague.
The resolutions need to be within reach and manageable. I want to lose weight is vague. I want to lose 50 pounds by June by eating healthier and losing about two pounds per week is a better start. Then break that down even farther and write down how you’re going to eat healthier, how you’ll track it, who will help you, etc. (Just a note I’ve lost 35 pounds since September which is why I chose this particular resolution)
It may seem like more work but if it’s really something you want to change you’ll do it.
Now there are easy ones of course like maybe you resolve to smile more. Sounds easy but you’ll need to think about it more often. It’s not exactly the kind of thing you can have a plan for unless you want to set some kind of reminder on your watch, etc. to make you think about it.
I think some people try to resolve too many things. When it turns out there is just no way to do them all they give up on all of them. Your list needs to be prioritized. The things you want to change the most should be at the top and in writing.
I’ve decided to just make four resolutions.
1. I will write 30 minutes each day. It doesn’t matter what I write I will do it at least 30 minutes each day (this hopefully will include more postings). I’d like to specify a time but I know that just won’t work and I know there will be some days where I just will not be able to sit down at the computer.
2. I will go back to school. That’s a vague one because I haven’t figured out how to pay for it yet so part of this resolution is to spend at least an hour a week looking for grants and/or loans.
3. I will send out at least one query a week for my completed book which I’ve been ignoring.
4. I will spend at least one hour a week (more would be better) researching paying freelance writing jobs.
I think each of these resolutions is a reasonable goal and most of all none of them seem overwhelming.
I’d be very curious to hear what any of you folks have resolved to change in the upcoming year and how you plan to do it.
I hope you all have a very happy and healthy new year!
PS – My friend’s husband did lose his job (Christmas eve, can anybody be that cruel...) and her dad died just several days before. She drove to MA for the funeral and is still on her way back. Anybody having good thoughts to spare it would be greatly appreciated!
I’m wishing her all my strength and whatever else she needs that I can do...
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
My Little Angels…
Floored. Amazed. Dumbfounded. Warm hearted. These are just a very few of the words I can think of to express myself for each and everyone of you that leapt up and took immediate action to come to the aid of a single mother and child whom needed help and you did it on my word alone. You also did it in 24 hours… I still can’t believe it…
My faith in the universe has been shaken immensely the last couple of months and I’ve managed to mostly keep on the positive side but you ladies put me right over the edge I have to tell you. Saying thank you doesn’t seem like enough at all but it’s all I have to offer, so thank you to each and every kind heart that participated…
Then last night talking to a good friend I found out that her husband may be losing his job. My heart sank again. I’m not a praying kind of guy but if you folks could send a lot of good thoughts this way for them I would really appreciate it.
She’s had it rough enough, so have her kids. I just want her to know that it will all work out in the end.
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My faith in the universe has been shaken immensely the last couple of months and I’ve managed to mostly keep on the positive side but you ladies put me right over the edge I have to tell you. Saying thank you doesn’t seem like enough at all but it’s all I have to offer, so thank you to each and every kind heart that participated…
Then last night talking to a good friend I found out that her husband may be losing his job. My heart sank again. I’m not a praying kind of guy but if you folks could send a lot of good thoughts this way for them I would really appreciate it.
She’s had it rough enough, so have her kids. I just want her to know that it will all work out in the end.
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Monday, December 15, 2008
Looking for angels...
Ladies and gentlemen of single parenthood (you really don’t have to be single or a even a parent). I am officially putting out a call for angels.
I have a friend in CA who is a single 30-year-old mom of four boys. Due to a divorce, a foreclosure and other issues she only has one of the boys with her and hasn’t seen the others for some time…
She asked me this morning if I knew how to find a family to adopt her son for Christmas. Broke my heart, I knew she was fighting but I hadn’t realized it was that hard. I’m really tapped this year for a variety of reasons but I thought if I could find some people to help out that maybe we could all be the family that adopts him.
Anybody interested in helping shoot me an e-mail, vsorce@juno.com, and I’ll get you her name and address. There’s a list below:
• Nintendo DS Games ( WIFI Enabled )
o Pokemon
o Sims
• Skateboard
• Hooded sweatshirts Boys Large ( 14-16 )
• Socks Shoe size 8 Boys
• ???????
I try to donate all year long and I do often wonder where the money goes. I know directly where this is going and it’s a nice feeling. Thanks folks!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Grants for who?
Yesterday my employer cut my hours from 40 to 32 starting in January. After the initial shock and terror I convinced myself that everything would be fine. I would just try to do more writing and dig up more freelance work and if some of the savings gets used, well that’s what it’s there for.
I also thought I might take a writing class and that ballooned into me thinking seriously again about getting my degree. While searching through what the local colleges had to offer I realized I’d never be able to afford to do this.
I abandoned the degree search and started searching for educational grants. Being a single parent I thought I’d run across at least a couple that might meet my needs. To my surprise however I come to find that I am the wrong gender. Every single grant I came across was for single mothers, not single parents and not single fathers.
I shouldn’t be surprised, there are more single mothers and traditionally they need these programs more then men but to not run across any at all? It was a quick search and I’ll keep looking, there must be at least one out there for all single parents or maybe even single dads.
I think this may be my reawakening to hit my single dad research again hard and get writing! I can just imagine all the uneven statistics that are out there waiting to be discovered…
I also thought I might take a writing class and that ballooned into me thinking seriously again about getting my degree. While searching through what the local colleges had to offer I realized I’d never be able to afford to do this.
I abandoned the degree search and started searching for educational grants. Being a single parent I thought I’d run across at least a couple that might meet my needs. To my surprise however I come to find that I am the wrong gender. Every single grant I came across was for single mothers, not single parents and not single fathers.
I shouldn’t be surprised, there are more single mothers and traditionally they need these programs more then men but to not run across any at all? It was a quick search and I’ll keep looking, there must be at least one out there for all single parents or maybe even single dads.
I think this may be my reawakening to hit my single dad research again hard and get writing! I can just imagine all the uneven statistics that are out there waiting to be discovered…
Monday, November 24, 2008
Can Men be too Sensitive?
My oldest son Michael says I’m the gayest straight man he knows. I’m not exactly a guy's guy. Since I was in High school my best friends have always been women. I think sports are a waste of time and if they spent all that money and time on social injustices the world would be a much different place.
I love musicals, I like to read. I’ve taught myself how to sew, knit and crochet. I can cook, I do laundry. My dear friend Diana asked me the other day if I had the “Cats” CD and of course I did. She said, “somehow I knew you would.” I took that as a compliment!
I cry. At movies, when I’m upset, things involving my kids, whatever, I let it out. I was watching the Wedding Singer last night and I’ve seen it dozens of times but when it gets to the end and he sings to her on the plane I start up, it doesn’t matter that I know it’s coming. Anytime I go to a movie now Joey asks me if I cried and now I just say, “I’m not telling,” and his response is always an unforgiving, “dad…”
I’m also and incurable Hopeful Romantic (Not hopeless, see “Romancing the Stone,” and you’ll understand…) flowers, cards, texts, walks holding hands and on and on…
That’s not to say that I don’t like a good game of softball and I’ve bowled my share of 200’s. I can change the sparkplug and air filter in my mower and get it running and I can build you a great set of shelves in my shop.
So many women seem to go for these guys who have testosterone dripping from every pore and then bitch that her man doesn’t understand her. Maybe no matter how strong a woman is they still want to know that their guy can protect them and make them feel safe.
I assure you though that if anyone ever attempts to hurt my girl (when that happens of course…) that this knitting, teary-eyed, romantic will be ripping their heart out through their scrotum.
I love musicals, I like to read. I’ve taught myself how to sew, knit and crochet. I can cook, I do laundry. My dear friend Diana asked me the other day if I had the “Cats” CD and of course I did. She said, “somehow I knew you would.” I took that as a compliment!
I cry. At movies, when I’m upset, things involving my kids, whatever, I let it out. I was watching the Wedding Singer last night and I’ve seen it dozens of times but when it gets to the end and he sings to her on the plane I start up, it doesn’t matter that I know it’s coming. Anytime I go to a movie now Joey asks me if I cried and now I just say, “I’m not telling,” and his response is always an unforgiving, “dad…”
I’m also and incurable Hopeful Romantic (Not hopeless, see “Romancing the Stone,” and you’ll understand…) flowers, cards, texts, walks holding hands and on and on…
That’s not to say that I don’t like a good game of softball and I’ve bowled my share of 200’s. I can change the sparkplug and air filter in my mower and get it running and I can build you a great set of shelves in my shop.
So many women seem to go for these guys who have testosterone dripping from every pore and then bitch that her man doesn’t understand her. Maybe no matter how strong a woman is they still want to know that their guy can protect them and make them feel safe.
I assure you though that if anyone ever attempts to hurt my girl (when that happens of course…) that this knitting, teary-eyed, romantic will be ripping their heart out through their scrotum.
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